WENT INTO ONE OF MY THINKING TANGENTS THE OTHER DAY... THE THOUGHT CROSSED MY MIND... DO I REALLY KNOW WHAT LOVE TRULY MEANS... WELL BEING 23YEARS OLD AND ALL SOME WOULD THINK THAT I WOULD HAVE A DECENT IDEA OF WHAT LOVE MEANS. UNFORTUNATELY (OR FORTUNATELY) I DON'T.
WENT TALKING ON THE SUBJECT WITH MY PALS... NO SATISFACTORY REPLY, MY GRAND MUM... NOTHING THERE TO... ACQUIANTANCES AT SCHOOL... NOPE!! NOTHING THERE EITHER.
THEN I KIND OF REALIZED... NO BODY KNOWS WHAT LOVE REALLY MEANS. EVERYONE THINKS WHAT IT RELLY MEANS BUT THEY DON'T. EVERYONE RATIONALIZES EVERONE MAKE UP HIS OR HER DEFINITION, TO SUIT THEIR NEEDS. TO SOME ITS COMPANIONSHIP, TO SOME ITS DEVOTION, TO SOME ITS THE ANIMAL INSTINCT OF TOUCH AND PHYSICAL CONTACT (NOT SEX!!).
I HAD A RATIONALE FOR MYSELF ALSO ONCE... IT WAS NICE... IT WAS BEAUTIFUL... I THOUGHT IT WAS LOVE, TURNS OUT IT WASN'T... OR WAS IT I DON KNOW. IF U GO BY THE CLASSICAL DEFINITION THAT LOVE IS FOREVER, THEN IT DEFINITELY WASN'T... BUT IF LOVE MEANS THAT FOR THAT POINT OF TIME, U R AT PEACE WITH YOURSELF, EVERYTHING AROUND YOU SEEMS TO BE IN HARMONY, THE MERE THOUGHT, THE MERE SMELL OF THAT PERSON FILLS YOUR HEART WITH JOY, THEN MAYBE IT WAS...
ANYWAYS... LET BYGONES BE BYGONES... I STILL AM ON MY ETERNAL QUEST FOR FINDING OUT WHAT LOVE TRULY MEANS. I DON HOPE TO FIND IT IN THIS LIFETIME... MAYBE I'LL RATIONALIZE SOMETHING AND CALL IT LOVE AND LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER, BUT THE TRUE MEANING SHALL STILL ELUDE US (ME AND YOU, THAT IS).
IF YOU THINK YOU FOUND OUT THE TRUE MENAING, DO LET ME KNOW...
